Bottled Up Emotions

I am not aware if I am taking a right decision or a wrong one... I am just too confused about everything in my life... Maybe my decision is correct or may be it is a hasty one... I love this person but I am not sure about this person... All I want is an assurance that I am not able to drive the same from anywhere... I want to talk to someone who can give me an unbiased view/insight on my present situation... I am 26 and this persons is so young... I am not worried about infidelity as I am well aware that at 23 years of age, the hormones tend to run wild... I am not sure about myself... I feel everything is a lie... I am not able to believe this person's words as the past experience has shown that concocting stories comes easy to this person... All I want is inner peace that is missing... It is like I am walking hand-in-hand with a strange dream that I want to sleep with but at the same time want to wake up as soon as possible.. It scares the hell out me thinking about this scenario... I feel like a stranger in this person's life.... Every now and then a fact comes out and my mind switches off... I am trying to sleep over the facts but I cannot keep on ignoring.... Someone suggested me to move on but it is not easy to leave the person who loves you and your heart feels the same love... 

Thoughts before 'YOU' came to my LIFE!!

In past 1 year, I have tried very hard to understand why things never went according to me. Everyone accepts certain things, but somehow I don't even have that right. People approach me when they have tons of sad memories and bad experiences to share. I patiently listen to every detail they have to spill out. But I don't have any idea how to share my heart with people. It aches and breaks on everyday basis, but I just tend to move on with life. It is like, I have become a tree on the roadside under which people stand for shade or dogs tend to pee or kids love to hang from the branches. 'Oh, he understands everything', 'he is so patient', or he doesn't need any help as he is good at resolving issues for others. Why do people forget that I am human too and not a machine? I know it is my fault as I let people walk all over me and fade away. I should have approached people and shared my feeling for them, but you will not believe me that I have done the same. One can suggest me that I should be more vocal and learn to be content with myself. I am content with my life, career choice, company of great friends, and other things. In so many years, all I could achieve, till now, is to be a great friend and a support for so many people. I should be named as 'Mother Teresa' in this aspect. I fail to understand, where am I going wrong? What I should have done in a manner to have an amazing relationship? My mom told me once, you should be successful to attract people towards you. I am 25 and my career is pacing in a right direction.

It is always I, never we. My soul aches for that support that one can get through companionship. People want to change for others but I never expect anyone to change for me. I know I have thousand defects and I have never hidden anything from anyone. I have a rule- "Never hide anything from anyone". For a successful relationship, you ought to come clean first with yourself and then with the other person. I just cannot move ahead building a wrong impression on someone and letting that person's hope fly high. What is wrong in confessing that you have defects and you have no power to rectify them. Does love has to be so judgmental to accept you as person with defects? I am not a hopper or a person who actually understands a one-night-stand. I am very simple soul who believes that one person is enough for me. I am not boasting but I never required to approach anyone for anything. All I want is stability without compromising on truth or changing myself or the other person. 

First Copy-Paste Shirt Design

BLACK DIARY_CHAPTER Flirting Intro

Of course, I know I’m doing it. I have been doing it since my junior years at school and it is something that every man wants to do after a hectic day. What is bad about doing something that is not going to harm anyone? What do you do when you meet someone mesmerizing? You smile, talk, buy a drink and then you do it! It is like you are in heat and you both want to do it so bad that you do not even remember next morning that who started it and where it all ended. Yeah-Yeah, some people say that you should not let your guards down so soon but do you really give a damn when someone compliments you and you get washed away with the high current? Nah, you never, I can bet on it. Even mature good-looking people have no control on it. All they do is just smile and let the things happen so that they can smile about throughout the next day.

Oops, before you get a wrong meaning out of whatever I said above, let me clear the air. I was talking about- Flirting, an Art practiced by the people who use their happy hormones in a correct manner and depend less on emotions. This art has been the integral part of the royal courts and has been passed-down from generations to generations to ensure that men and women have something more to do with drinks. Queen Cleopatra, the real queen of flirting was the first lady to make the royal courts cry over their bankruptcy and wives for their love-stung husbands. Being a Flirt is a sin in the society as you are looked down upon as a Charmer, Wing-man, Player, Mack Daddy and more. The inevitable fact about being a flirt, which is always ignored, is that you are capable to wooing people within seconds when other spend eternity and are never successful. You walk in a room, make an eye contact with a person and you know where to concentrate all your energy.

Flirting is an art that can be used in one’s own advantage aswell. Coy smile, a slight tilt of the head, the slow brush of an imaginary hair from the colleague’s suit, the twinkly laugh and what not, everybody on the earth is doing it just to get their work done by hook or crook. It is not a malpractice; it is just a playful approach towards a scenario that can lead to a heated discussion. The trick is to do this while understanding the social cues. It also makes you more conscious about yourself. You end up taking more care of your face, the way you walk, the way you dress and the way you communicate. So the end result is all positive and you are looking fab-u-lous! Flirting is way to gain self-confidence and is a natural source of positive energy.
It’s the ultimate power tool. I just cannot stop myself reaping it’s benefits. So people just don’t sit der behind your desks, freshen up and approach the one you always wanted to talk to. Because that person is not going to bite you in the public (atleast)!

BLACK DIARY_CHAPTER Flirting

Me – “You know what, I feel like a vampire, thirsty for the fresh blood from pulsating nerves of your cervical neck”
She – What?
Me – “Yes, your eyes are making me lose myself and overpowering my senses.”
She-“Really?”
Me- “Wanna fell my racing beats in just your mere presence; I have no idea what else you are capable of?”

PAUSE-FROWN, RED FACE, fingers rolling into a FIST.

She- “Mr. I am taken”
Me- “I just wish all the luck to the man who dared to touch the goddess with his bare hands.”
She- Her sparkling whites, twinkle in eyes and rose red cheeks expressed how flattered she was.

1 down, that’s not bad but one down at the starting of a crazy night ahead is a serious low down. Yes, I can spring back and flatter any woman in 360-degree view but a defeat at the beginning, pull some strings back on a serious note. It is not hard to take a defeat but forgetting it is as difficult as forgetting your boss shouting in the glass torture chamber. Every word from the boss echoes when a girl turns you down on your face. As such, flirts are known for ‘Have no respect at table and in bed’ attitude. However, they also have letdown moments which they do not even want der ‘chaddi-buddies’ to known about. We have a tradition to save, follow the guidance passed down by our flirty ancestors and never let anyone tarnish our ever-sparkly image.

We are not born on Mars and sent to earth to ruin the nights of over protective boyfriends or worried dads with big riffles. We are just here to have a good time and walk out of the crowded bar with a beauty on the arms, if we are in mood to take the whole scene one-step further. Flirting gives us a kick that no drug can give. The flushed expressions, biting lips, twinkling eyes and that trustful tilt of your body towards us makes us go on and on to reach the epitome of the whole conversation. It’s like a stage performance where you need to impress some hand full of people but the only difference here is you are all alone and you have to have energy of the whole troop to impress one person. This is an art that can mess up your day or make someone else’s day as who doesn't like to be bombarded with compliments. But what you need to keep in mind is that flirting is an art to cool down your muscles, relive your stress and let the happy hormones flow to various parts of your body. Sheer optimism drives the whole art form and can help you meeting new people and make contacts at power tables. So never, let your guards down, spray a new fragrance and put up a classy appearance with a sparkly smile to impress the next one.  I think the girl in blue is smiling at me, so bye and forget what I revealed to you just now! Ciao 

One should either be a work of art, or wear a work of art!!

Sculpture, painting, sketches and what not in the art fame wall can be made a visual art, odds are fashion sculptors are already picking up ideas for their new runway collection. Fashion houses are crawling under the layers of art world to find inspiration that is out-of-the-box. Creative ideas are put-on-rest and fresh designs are piled up on the desk while the brains are busy hurling art forms that are not mainstream. Their Muses’ flames have inspired a fresh collection that is vivid and has a concept that talks out load about the ideas it carries in the form of woven fabric. The collections inspired by the art form are a play of unique eye-catching patterns that will flatter the feminine silhouette. The collection expresses attitude and symmetry at the same time. The result of the inspiration is a thematic collection that has spread its wings from perfume bottle prints to the world of interiors.

Art and Fashion have been walking hand-in-hand through centuries and return to the runway after the end of a fashion decade. It is difficult now to differentiate between the two anymore. They have blurred together to create a world where art can weaved with hands that can even paint a masterpiece. Sometimes, it pumps your heart and makes the hair of your face stand with amusement created by the mix. Years went by to achieve this perfect recipe that made every eye filled with lust to own the great Mix’s baby. French couturier Paul Poiret was one of the names that actually showed deep interest in Art and even employed Persian Artists that fueled the same. He collected Impressionist paintings that were unacceptable by the hall of art and used those as inspiration for theater costumes. Today, it can be concluded that there is no line between them. The pieces churning out from this great relation portrays the highly charged moments of emotions, sexuality, gender, politics, modernism, and romanticism.  The changing cuts, fabrics and prints of the pieces from the renowned designers through the time have a close relation to the development in the field of Art. When designers and artists work together as a team, the question of whether fashion is art pops-up. The muses’ inspire a collection that is both visually awe-inspiring and something familiar is presented in an unfamiliar way.  Clothes are now statements while the wearers are becoming walking canvases.

Let it be!!

Someone told me once, “Life is tricky, you ought to keep your guards up!!” but this person never told me why I should do that. With passage of time, I completely forgot what he told me and to tell you the truth his face as well. But now I know why he warned me and I know how important it is.

I am not a kind of guy who is self-centred. I am weirdo with a huge heart, which has done nothing except for beating and giving me endless pain. (I am not boasting that I am a very nice human but this what my friends always say for me.)  Life has shown me many colours but I have always been unlucky when it came to red colour. The crimson red colour of love and death as well. I have seen its worse side but never a side where it bathed me in light of sheer bliss.

Why is that?? I never expect more than I can get. I never force myself on anyone. I give it a chance and let it blossom and moreover, I never confess what’s on my mind to the other person to avoid an awkward situation or losing someone amazing or killing the brewing future. Am I doing something wrong?

I am so confused these days that I have been marking mails to wrong departments at work. This time I think I committed a blunder; I confessed my feelings to someone who never cared about them. No idea what got into me and why I did what I never did in my life.

I want to write and express so much but I am not able to. There is so much in my head that I want to share but words are leaving my side. I am falling apart for falling for someone. I need to get back together before I loose myself. Whole day I stare at my phone in a hope but this person is going to ping me and tell me what’s cooking in the head. ‘I am sorry for bringing troubles in your life.” This is what you have to say?? Really? “It bothers me.” Sorry, I don’t think so. I never bothered you in 1^st place and it will never bother you for rest of your life. From past 5 days, I have been sharing my past and present, but what all I get is “I wanna/need to meet you”. For What?? Have fun with/meet anyone you want to or do anything in your life –DRAMA,WORK or MBA, just do not bother me. So good luck as I am slowly going to disappear from your happening life. I am done holding the door for you.

To tell you the truth, your life never changed its pace, if I was there before or not present now.

Who are Aquarians??

"In spring, when -woods are getting green, I'll try and tell you what I mean:

In summer, when the days are long, Perhaps you'll understand the song.

For this must ever be -A SECRET"

In a true sense, every aqurian is a Mystery in many layers. We not only like reading mysteries, but we like to surround ourselves with mysteries.

Aquarians the Solution: Try letting down the mental guard that you keep on your emotions that stops you from being the self you long to be.

Aquarians Problem: You always seem to miss the boat when it comes to love.

Aquarians basically possess strong and attractive personalities.

Two ways to piss an Aquarian off: 1. Wake them up when they’re sleeping 2. Eat their food .

As an Aquarian, you feel and understand things deeply, but have the unique ability not to show your emotions.

Aquarians are very honest people and care not only for themselves but for others a great deal.

Aquarians are never afraid of taking chances, but we have to sit aside for a sec to think about the consequences

Aquarians often look for that perfect relationship

As an Aquarian, you want money for the experiences that life has to offer, rather than acquiring it for the sake of having it.

Aquarian relationships really thrive when their partner: brings passion and emotional warmth into their life.

Aquarians don’t bullshit, if they say they are going to do something they fucking do it.

If an Aquarian gets mad, duck.

When Aquarians speak, they speak the truth. Otherwise they’ll just stick with thinking.

Aquarian and Gemini make Great couple, definitely meant for each other. Either way, they are set to remain one or the other for life

Aquarian Positive Traits; Friendly and humanitarian, Original and inventive, Independent and intellectual, Honest and Loyal.

Aquarian Negative Traits; Contrary, Perverse, Unpredictable, Moody, Detached and Sometimes quiet.

Aquarians is a Positive Fixed Air Sign.  Their lucky Color : Turquoise, Blue.  The Water Bearer ♒ always thinks 50 years ahead in time.

Aquarians don’t leave you. They’re in 11th house of the Zodiac. The House of friendship. They care about friends more than any other sign.

When Aquarians don’t want to be bothered, they will ignore all calls, texts, emails, tweets etc, basically they shut you out

Aquarians can give you unconditional Love once they Trust you.

Aquarians heart is too big, too fragile, sometimes too giving, too intense, too everything, yet, still awesome

As an Aquarian, in life you have a unique way of looking at things and this helps make you stand out from other people.

As an Aquarian, you make an excellent friend but the worst kind of enemy

Aquarians are the easiest people to make friends with but the hardest to truly know. ‘I knew from the day we met, you’d be kind of hard to forget.’

Aquarians ♒ Are attracted to good looking people, but are more concerned about what’s inside a person.

An Aquarian is more likely to fall in love with your personality and not with your possessions.

People might think Aquarians are pushover because of how calm and easy going we are. Get us mad and its hell, our rage is not normal.

If Aquarians wants something done, they will do it themselves.

Aquarians keep the old “treat others the way you want to be treated” rule close by at all times.

Aquarians tend to accidentally ignore the world to be in their own little world.

Aquarians are modest, fun, caring, humble and loyal.

Aquarians controls the honesty in a relationship. If they suspect you are not being truthful, they back out.

Aquarians express their emotions by writing, painting and drawing.

An Aquarian is afraid to fall for people because they are afraid it’ll just be one-way love.

Aquarians use the silent treatment because we’d rather look unemotional than to reveal our true intense emotions at the time.

An Aquarian will give you a taste of your own medicine, whether good or bad.

An Aquarian tends to get too fired up and competitive in games! Some people find it cute & some people get scared and run away.

It’s actually hard for an Aquarian to accept defeat, even though they walk away with their head held high!

An Aquarian may seem like a tough nut to crack, but sooner or later, they will open up to you and let their emotions run free.

An Aquarian definitely regrets what they didn’t do, more than the mistakes that they have made!

Aquarians might not remember your name at first, but we’ll always remember your personality.

Sometimes when you’re verbally telling Aquarians not to do it, they’ve already accepted in their mind they’re going to do it.

When you are literally stuck in an Aquarian mind, that’s when we finally accept we like you. Although, it will be confusing at first.

If an Aquarian confesses that he/she likes you consider yourself lucky because they mean it and they don’t do that very often.

Mentally, an Aquarian can simultaneously maintain focus on various tasks, topics and responsibilities.

Only Aquarians know what they’re going through. Mostly because they will front as if they’re going through nothing.

If you want to attract an Aquarian show some interest

Aquarians hold on to their memories very tightly!

It’s impossible to just figure out what kind Aquarian you just met. If they seem serious at first, they’re probably actually super funny. When an Aquarian gets really attached it might be really hard to let the other person go.

Aquarians gives everyone same attention, and only if they don’t like you or likes you too much, they’ll be hesitant to talk or approach you.

Aquarians don’t like lies, even white lies, they always prefer truth.

Once an Aquarian has their eye on you, you are theirs.

Aquarians come up with great advice. Most of the time, they have been through what you need help in

Aquarians usually have a master plan that most people fail to comprehend.

Aquarian aged mentality and social skills often leave an air of nobility surrounding these beings. They have it like that.

Aquarians forgives and forgetts: We forgive you for screwing up & we FORGET you ever existed.

Aquarians will accept you for who you are. We’ll respect you more if you own your character than lie about it.

Aquarians act like a sarcastic, pleasant, fun, angel in public but a complete FREAK in the sheets, and the thought kind of turns us on.

If you know an Aquarian, then you know that when they dream, they dream big.

Once an Aquarian realizes you take them for granted, they will make a move and slowly disappear from your life.

Aquarians Likes: fame and recognition, personal privacy, dreams, magic, change, uniqueness, surprises, and living within their means.                

Aquarians Dislikes: Show offs, being taken for granted, violence, senseless, or purposeless Extravagance and Ignorance of any sort.

Aquarians is not a fighter, but will knock you ass out.

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Breathtakingly Beautiful!!

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Shoes, Shoes, Shoes

Shoes, shoes, shoes... Something that has many purposes that varies from person to person. Some just want these to save their feet from dust, some want to protect their feet while covering a long distance, some for jogging as suggested by the doctor, some to create a safety film as they work in an anti-bacterial environment and there is one last category that wants these to define their mood in an explicit manner. Where a person is not able to utter words, the shoes can paint a clear picture of their thoughts. Shoes are no more for making a style statement or for an exhibitionist who is coping with the changing fashion. They have crossed the boundary of colour coordination and have given up on long stays in the closet while waiting for the correct occasion to pop out with seven layers of expensive polish. Shoes have taken the cloak of colours and have emerged as a mute individual who has a personality of its own. They are no more just leather, sole and laces that made them a fancy accessory for men. Some shoes that are a must-have this season are as follows:

1. Two-Tone Shoes – When you look at these shoes, you get a bourgeois feel owing to their cut, style and colour combination. This type of shoes is available in leather, suede and canvas material. If you will go through the online megastores, you will find a huge collection of Monk, Oxford and Loafer shoes in this style from the brands like Carlton, Clarks and Famozi.

2. Braided shoes – Ever seen a braided hairstyle? If yes, then you will be able to relate to this type of shoes easily. This style, in leather or other material, is achieved after interlacing more than three strands to form a pattern.

3. Collared Shoes – Now you need to be careful as shoes also have collar that means you cannot manhandle them by tossing across the room. The collar style shoes are very popular among the teens and hip-hop fans. In addition, you will find the ever-stylish North-eastern people flaunting them in fluorescent colours.

 Now it is time for some shopping as your wardrobe still has some space left for the latest pair of shoes that you ought to buy.

Magpie’s Little Charmer

Every other school has a special child who is tiny, intelligent, bubbly, jumpy and has shining white teeth. This is the child that stands in front of the line, can push his way through the crowd, can have as many candies possible and can make a tall kid feel short with his charm. Seldom remembered for wisdom and charm, this kid is just a one-day star. He is a Magpie with a thousand shades of charm but gets to shine only when observed with a binocular in the dense forest. That’s the situation of the Brooch, a little member of the jewellery family who is forgotten by the world with the passage of time. This little master with shiny jewels and a charm to die for has lived through generations- appearing now and then. Still makes an appearance when the fashion world is in dire need of it.

Brooch is a jewellery item that was used for holding the garment in place. This long lost clasp was born in 3300 BC but nobody gave a thought that a clasp can be the next big thing in the Y2K fashion world. It is the best pick to breathe some fresh life into a tailored business suit or pep up a black fedora. A brooch acts like a sensible jewellery piece that can be worn by both men and women without overdoing it. This magic touch of fairy godmother is made in various metals like bronze, copper, steel, silver, gold and studded with crystals, pearls, beads, semi-precious and even diamonds. Brooch is the only accessory type that crosses the sub-culture divides and be worn year round.


Magpie, go ahead and flaunt this amazing piece of art at following places with some tips:

a. Brunch/Lunch: Just remember that all that gaudy stuff can be saved for the afterhours (when nobody watching). So grab the delicate ones that have some tidbits hanging from them or just a single metal insect brooch will do the justice. Just don’t stick it to your upper shoulder or lapel, try new places like belts, ties, shirt collar or placket of your Chinese collar shirt.


b. Office: Don’t try to impress your manager with loud pieces as you cannot afford them to go blind in your appraisal meeting. Go for the subtle type, opt for the very simple bow style brooches or handmade brooches.


c. Party: Unleash your lust for gaudy stuff and opt for art deco brooches or Vintage style brooches. Just make sure it compliments your spiked slip-ons or printed scarfs. Just a request, please do not go overboard with your love for sparkle.

You can wear the brooches with an ease and without giving a dim about how it will look on you. Now please do not imagine that I will be giving you a tour de vintage, let me introduce you to some of the bobbing trends:

1. Pin Style Brooch:

Basic design revolves around a safety pin that has tidbits hanging or stuck on them.

2. Vintage style Brooch:

These are designed keeping in mind the golden era and a hit these days because of Game of Thrones.

3. Felt Brooch:

Made using fabric, threads, buttons and beads, these ones are a rage after Jay Z flaunted one recently in the photo op for a magazine.

My Birthday Basket!!

In a few days, I will be 24 and my friends will be pouring me with loads of surprise gifts. But every year I waited for three gifts the most, one each from my Sister, Best Friend and Mom!!. But this time, my sis and best friend have disclosed what they are going to gift me.

Sister:

Best Friend:

Mom:

EXCITED!!

Now, I am waiting for my mom's gift!! I know it's going to be good. Plus, I my next post will be about Suitings!! 

Ed Hardy

As such, I was never a very big fan of Ed Hardy. Never even thought of entering their stores or checking their collection anywhere, as I always believed that skulls are good for coffins not clothes. Recently I started going through their designs and really liked some watches, which can be called as ‘SUBTLE’. Apart from their very loud skull tattoo collection, they have some items that one can wear and not regret buying those. Christian Audigier, the god behind the creation of this out loud brand, has combined the elements of vintage punk with his inspiration Don Ed Hardy.

STYLETAG.com

Sometimes, it is good to have a brand name that actually talks loud about what you have in store or what can be expected out of you. I must say that styletag.com has done justice to the name by featuring some of the best collections. Do check out the WLIFW spring/summer 2013 collection that they are selling online. They are rolling high on fashion and that is what is expected out of an eCommerce venture. If you can provide us with clothes that a store salesman can do then please stop calling yourself a fashion/lifestyle giant of the online world. We need sites that can offer exclusive stuff at amazing prices. Exclusive here doesn't mean you are going to push rejected stuff that is never going to see the luminosity of the mall stores or ever going to be draped around the body of the mannequin. As a shopper who is stuck or in reality trapped in the walls of the the office, I want stuff which is perfect for my body type, I don't need to try it or think thousand times about its quality. So big flaming eCommerce ventures, please wake up and stop featuring products that are from the old collection of some famous brand or are so pathetic that your girlfriend might break-up with you if you even thought about clicking on "Add to the Cart" button. 

One brand that is turning out to be my latest MUSE. I have fallen head over heels for the cuts and fabrics used to create a collection that is mind-blowing to every stitch. At the present, Styletag.com has cufflinks, shirts and jackets from the brands collection. What I really like about this brand how they have mixed the modern fabrics with the conventional designs and cuts to create a piece that is not loud, dull or complete disaster. Take a look at some of the pieces from their collection:

Jackets

Shirts

Cufflinks

JaCkEtS

I wish I could carry my warm-warm Blanket and hot-hot Coffee Mug when I leave for office in the morning. It is still not freezing in Delhi but the chilly wind gives you shivers and in the evening you just cannot step out. Warmth of smoke and small fills of instant coffee are a bit of relief providers at the office. But you can beat the winter with all new range of Jackets form various brands. Check out some of my favorites: 

Zovi.com

Basics

Flying Machine

GAS

Indian Terrain

Just Natural

Wrangler

PUMA

United Colors of Benetton

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